Some Thoughts

It's that time of year again when I do some thinking. On the top of the list are my ancestors. Halloween to me isn't a trick-or-treat day, it's a sabbat called Samhain (pronounced sow-won or sow-wen). It's a lot like Day of the Dead in Mexico, Dío de ls Muertos. It's a day to honor our ancestors and remember them. It's also my 1st New Year. :-D The 2nd being Dec 31st.

The next on the list being my life and/or life in general. I know it's this time of year because my brain does this to me every year around this time. LOL I reflect on my life, my struggles, what I've done and what I want to do in the years to come. I marvel at what I've survived and how it's made me a stronger person. The synopsis of my life would go something like this I guess. I've survived all the different kinds of abuse there is, physical, mental, emotional, sexual and a rape by a "friend". From age 18 to 24 I gave birth to 4 absolutely amazing children. They've grown into amazing young adults. I met and married my soul mate,my best friend,my other half, quite literally! We feel each others pain usually on the opposite side of the body. For example, if my left knee hurts, Gil's right knee hurts. Then, I injured myself at work...it wasn't even a serious injury and now am surviving and living with this crud that took my body but not my soul!!

I think at one time in everyone's life someone has asked, "Would you go back and change anything in your life knowing what you know now?" I've never needed any time at all to give my answer to that. It's a big fat NO,I wouldn't change a thing. It's all the experiences good and bad that has made me who I am. Even the truly horrible things and dealing with manic depression and ptsd. I have wondered how I'd be different without having survived some things. Would I have such a big sense of humor? Would I be as compassionate? *shrugs* I don't know and in the end doesn't really matter.

To end this I must relate the tale of the visitor we currently have with us. It's a he, I think, and he's kind of cute. He's small and greenish/brownish. At this moment I see his little head peeking above the picture frame on the wall. As if you hadn't guessed by now he is a lizard! LOLOL I spotted him about 3 days ago and despite mine and Hanyuu's best efforts, we weren't able to catch and release the little bugger. He's also only coming out when everyone is in bed besides me! Grrrrr Hanyuu is our lizard catcher expert around here. She's been at it since she was about 7 years old I think. *sigh* I can only hope to find him tomorrow while she's up so we can get the little fellow back outside where he belongs before he dies in here.