Writing and the Brain

I'm proud to announce that on Thursday and yesterday I turned in 3, yes count them 3 articles! *big ole shit eatin grin* Two on Thursday and 1 yesterday. My Big Brain may have huge gaping holes in it most days, but it never completely abandons me. It feels like it does sometimes.

The doubts I had about myself and my ability to write are quickly fleeing. I was plagued by the thought I am not good enough. Who was I kidding thinking I'm a writer and I could possibly have a writing career. I'll never get the hang of writing articles for the web. I also thought I wouldn't get very many page views and the ones I would get would be from the small group of friends I have.

The three articles to come are: CRPS and Family, Myths of CRPS and Aphasia. I have about 14 more articles to come on aphasia and myasthenia gravis alone. June is awareness month for both of these conditions. I won't explain these conditions now because if I did, then you'd have no reason to go and read my articles. It's all about education and bringing awareness to these conditions. In between the 14 I have laid out, there will, of course, be more CRPS articles.

My awesomely Big Brain is on a roll and it feels good. I am starting to pull together a schedule for myself slowly. It takes time to figure out what works best for you when it comes to freelance writing. Especially if you want to make writing a career. I understand I can't be so hard on myself. The pressure I feel isn't from the outside, it's from inside. The stronger the pressure, the more my Big Brain wants to function. I can't get words to come out right. I can't decide what to write about. Then when I do I have no clue where to start or how to begin. It just snowballs from there until I'm pulling my hair, gnashing my teeth and want to scream long and loud till I have no voice left.

Today worked well for me. Instead of putzing around after booting up the computer, I opened my articles folder, made my way to the info I saved last night, and began to write. I got it done, then set it aside to edit later. I didn't have to do much editing.

I know some days pain will get in the way. Pain has a way of wiping out the ability to think and laughs at you because you can't even put two words together. As time goes on I will get faster at writing my articles. I won't mentally abuse myself for not writing any articles on the days my pain level is high. Maybe one day I will be able to write regardless of the day. I might find a way to work around the way pain interferes with my ability to think and concentrate. For now, I am going to concentrate on the goals I have set for myself, maybe think of new ones and continue to strive for they stars.