Sad News and a Warning....Possible Whining Ahead

Sad news tonight. My dad called me a couple of hours ago. He got back from Kentucky two days ago after dropping everything to attend my Aunt Patsy's service. She died last Friday and had been been going downhill for some time. I haven't seen her in many years but she was the most loving big hearted woman and always smiling. I hadn't realized she had great-grandkids already! Time sure does fly.

More sad news too, my aunt,dad's sister is dying. They don't expect it to be too much longer really and that tears me up. As with all the women in my family, she's a force to be reckoned with and so full of life. She's had various health problems for a long time. After I got rsd 6 years ago I found out she'd been dx'd with Fibro. I dread "the call" from dad about aunt Janice.

The health stuff in my family is what has me leaning toward a probably genetic component to rsd for some people. Nothing about this crap is the same for everyone. It's just when you look at your own family and wonder.....is when you begin to link things together. RSD is a nervous system in overdrive. Your body thinks it's injured all the time, hence the oh so nice pain and too many other things to list. My grandpa died when I was 16 from ALS aka Lou Gehrig's disease. My aunt Janice has Fibro, I have rsd. I met many people who have rsd and fibro and close family with fibro,lupus,rsd and other auto immune related disorders. Mothers and daughters with rsd and one or 2 mother and sons.

*Warning.....possible whining ahead* Yes I have some cheese to go with it. I detest whiners and I'm a strong enough woman to not do it but come on......once in awhile we all need a good whine day and throw ourselves a pity party. Life just really sucks for me lately. All of it dealing with PAIN!!!!! I'm soooo tired of being tired, tired of hurting so damn bad 24/7. Where is my break?!?!?!?!? It's not fair to expect me to deal with feeling like someone set a huge bonfire on every nerve ending in my body! The bone marrow ache, the muscle aches, the stabbing,shooting pain in every part of me from the neck down. Can't it be one thing at a time? Why must it be all at once? Did someone decide it's torture time?! If so........take it back and leave me alone!!!!!!!!! Oh and the hair......yeah.....I was ok that my hair has been falling out. When my hair grows out I deal with having to brush my pillow because of all the hair on it. Needing to brush the couch too. But OMFG.....clumps now?!?!? I'm sooooo done!!!!!!!!!!!!! Hair cutty place here I come. Put aside the scissors and whip out the buzzer thingy! Yup, I'm gonna get me a nice buzz cut.....leave enough on top for me to spike up a little. ROFLMAO I like the spike thing really. I did it once before. :-D I'm short and cute so can pull the look off easily. LOLOLOL It will solve the problem of hair clumps. I can't deal with that at all.

Ok.......I'm done now. I know......I hear all those sighs of relief out there. Yeah, yeah, bite me. *grins* I'm not sure if that was whining or just blowing off steam and ranting but I feel better.

My big man Connor was running around the house tonight making all those cute little noises only a maine coon cat can make. He does laps up and down the stairs,around the dining room,the kitchen,over the shoes,behind the box and slapping the blinds as he dives behind said box. LOL I get exhausted watching him. He keeps me amused. I swear at times he's part dog. He plays fetch with soda bottle tops. He also has some kind of obsession with them too. If Gil leaves one on the table he'll stand up,snatch it and run off with it. I kid you not there must be about 20 of them all over the house now. He'll eat just about anything. Miss Shanni has this thing about sausage lately. I got mobbed by both of them when I ate a sausage biscuit a little bit ago. LOL

I'm done boring you to death now. Hopefully next time I'll be more intellectually stimulating. ROFL