Pain Continued

I'm putting this second post up because I didn't want the first post to be abysmally long. *smiles*

I decide about 12:20 am to go ahead and take another half a pill, just in case it comes back. I see it as maybe getting a jump start on it and heading it off at the pass. I should've known tonight wasn't going to be that easy. At 1 am, just half an hour ago I felt the pain climbing back up. Feeling the same things I have already described. For that very reason I will refrain from repeating myself now. I sit here just wishing it would stop!!! I know, wishing will get me nowhere but it doesn't hurt to try. I've stopped several times since I began typing this because it is painful to type so much at once. Taking breaks helps a little bit. I've forgotten when I even started this post! Has it been an hour now, 45 minutes? I know it hasn't been less than that.

I keep going in hopes that by focusing on putting words on this page I will focus a little less on the feelings of pain raging through my body and taking over my mind, trying to steal the very breath from my lungs.

I HATE this Really Sucky Disorder/Completely Rotten Phreakin Syndrome!!! I know, I know....freakin is spelled wrong. LOL It's all my poor, befuddled, pain ridden brain can come up with right now. I am so tired right now. More than usual for sure. Fighting pain will do that to a person. It's now 2 am and I do believe I will move along and get ready to go to sleep. It's going to be an early night for me. *cups hand to ear* What's that? Early? It's 2 am!! Don't you mean to say it's a late night for you? *doesn't even need to ponder* Nope, I meant what I said! I usually go to bed between 3 and 4 am, sometimes later. If I go to bed before 2:30 in the morning, it's an early night for me. It also shows the extent of my level of exhaustion. I'm going to take the rest of my meds and hope this pain eases off enough to allow me to escape into the oblivion of sleep for a few hours. I also hope that tomorrow will be a better day.