First Post

Well, here I am! :-D *looks around* I know it's a bit bare bones around here right now, but bear with me and I'll have this place looking spiffy in no time! A little elbow grease and comfy furnishings, this will be home in no time. In the meantime, enjoy yourself and follow along with me as I let the words flow onto the page.

Today was a good day to start with. Not much pain and I hoped it would stay that way. It figures that this day flowed like every other day this past week or so. It may start off good, but ends up going downhill way too fast. My pain level crept up a little bit early this evening, but wasn't that bad. I thought to myself, it's doable and I've certainly felt worse! *sigh* I really should learn to just keep my big mouth shut. About 10 pm I felt a bit more pain but still was ok and I was going to take my meds within 20-30 minutes anyway, so not a problem.

Yeah, right. I waited 20 minutes, took my pain med, but within 5-10 minutes I was in a whole mess of pain!! On a scale of 1-10, I would rate it about a 15! What's that you say? There no 15 between 1 and 10? *ponders a moment* You know, you're absolutely right!!! Personally I feel the 1-10 scale is utterly laughable as a way to rate RSD pain because sometimes it just doesn't cover how bad it can be. I put it the way I did so that even those without pain that read this might be able to relate to how much pain I'm feeling.

Anyway, where was I? Oh yeah.......I'm sitting here, my eyes welling with tears, every muscle fiber hurting, every joint killing me, my bone marrow feeling as if it's being dug out with a very dull knife. Every part of me screaming with pain, my body vibrating with it. I feel the need to stretch, you know the way you stretch your body right after you wake up in the morning? I feel like I need to do that. It feels to me that if I stretch, my muscles will stop feeling like they're being winched up tighter and tighter and it will alleviate the pain I'm feeling as well. I think you can see where this is going. That particular action brings no relief at all, nor does it feel particularly good!

The teeth grinding, tear producing pain is still as strong as ever. I want to crawl out of my body and come back later when it feels better. My skin is so sensitive, I can feel the circulation of air as the a/c kicks on to cool the house. It almost feels like fingers brushing over my skin very lightly. All it does is heighten my pain even more. Every brush of my shirt across my skin feels like sandpaper. I am so cold and I know it's only because my pain is so high. Every little sound is making me cringe with more pain. Even the sound of my own voice speaking to my daughter sounds so loud and so very painful!

Finally about an hour later, it subsides. I can once again breathe normally. I can talk to my daughter and listen to her speak without wanting to scream. The tv program I have on can have the volume turned back up. I can pet my fur babies once more without the feel of their fur on my hand making me scream and cry. Wow.....I was hoping that would be the worst episode of the night.