I Think.......

I may whine a bit tonight. From yesterday's little walk I am now almost incapable of walking! My legs hurt so bad I can't use my muscles to lift my foot off the floor. I've had to break out the crutches. Standing for 1 minute sets off the wet noodle legs thing. I hate, hate, hate those crutches!! After spending 2 + months on them, I wished to never need them again. The reality of my life is that I do need them sometimes. As much as I loathe them, it's better than falling.

Now that is one thing I'll avoid at all costs. Why? The answer is simple, falling really hurts!! I guess I should clarify a little more. It hurts me a lot more than "normal" people. If a normal person trips or takes a little tumble they'll most likely get up and laugh it off. Me, the non normal one, will lay there screaming and crying in utter agony. No I am not exaggerating. I wish I were. Simply bumping my knee on something will produce the same result. In addition, I will continue to have more pain and actually feel the place that was bumped all day. It's hard to imagine one can continue to feel the corner of the table on the skin and in the bone long after the impact was done. This is one of the little joys that rsd brings.

In other news of the day......we didn't overlook Connor tonight. They both came in together as usual. :-) It is a very good day!

I have found it very hard to concentrate today because of the reasons stated above. It's not good when trying to write an article. Everything out of my fingers sounds stilted and possibly even slightly stupid! Even though I don't feel very intelligent, I'm still writing it. I know tomorrow may be a better day for me, so I'll reopen the document and do some revising and editing. Put it aside for a bit and repeat. I am very hard on myself and demand perfection. The problem with that is nothing is ever perfect! The good news is I have learned to let go of some of that attitude. It requires taking a few steps back, taking a breath and telling myself, I've done a good job. Let someone else look over the work, give me feedback and go from there. After all, I'm writing the article for other people for a variety of reasons. To inform, engage and possibly make them think.

I've taken my break, now back to it I go!