Sorry Haven't Been Around

I'm just not doing very well right now. My life is just one big, on going stress. My daughter will still not move down here with me!! I don't understand it. She calls me every other day, I kid you not, complaining about her dad or her boyfriend's mom. The "dad" is treating her like crap and the mom sticking her nose in my girl's life! All this stress for her isn't good because of the baby. I can't force her to do anything, but, pardon my french, it really makes me feel like shit!!!!! Am I really such a horrible mom or something?!

Then, she calls 2 nights ago saying her and the boyfriend had just been robbed. Not only had they been robbed but the guy held a gun to her head. OMFG!!! Even thinking about it still reduces me to tears. I could've lost my daughter, my grand baby and her boyfriend in 2 shots from that gun. I felt so helpless listening to her sobbing on the phone. As usual I kept it together while on the phone but lost it when I got off. Sitting here crying just thinking about it.

I finally heard about the food stamps. We were denied. Yup.....the reason....we didn't provide proof of income and identity. The day after I applied a woman called from the food stamp office and that afternoon he took his pay stubs to fax to them. No one ever said anything about identity. They say they didn't get anything from us at all. The first piece of paper I've gotten from the &&^%^%$$## is today denying me. Gil went to the office in town this afternoon and they "say" they have sent us mail. BS!!!!!!!! Why would we say we haven't gotten anything?!?!?! I'm so upset and I'm damn sure appealing this. They should've called or mailed something to us telling us they didn't have "fill in the blank" from us so they could make a decision. In this case they're at fault and the rules state if that's the case, then the food stamps are retroactive to the date you apply. I'm not re-applying for anything since we did what we were supposed to do.

I'm worried about the bills that we have no money to pay. Here it is the 18th and we still can't pay rent. Electric is still not paid and I'm expecting them to shut it off any day now. We did get the water and phone bill paid 2 weeks ago but it's another week before we have any money. *sigh*

All of this has resulted in a lot more pain for me which is why I haven't written here in about 5 days. The cold weather is also adding to my pain as well. I love having the house open and not dealing with the heat though. I don't even want to think about christmas.

Now that I've moaned enough I must go. My arms and hands are really hurting.